keeping in theme with my username here , as always . i will stop saying that maybe i'll be active here again because every time i try it just falls apart. things are so different now, than they were when i started this account my struggles are different which makes the way i write different too i am unlearning so many shitty coping mechanisms and conditioned behaviours which is good i just feel like a completely different person- probably because i kind of am. my base is still the same, i still care entirely too much all the time & when i try not to i almost always fail.. that will probably always be a given with me. i was hoping this year would be less heart breaking but it has been the exact opposite for me and i am struggling with that. part of that struggle is just like.. i'm married and out of my previous domestic violence situations and overall i'm pretty happy but i'm still depressed so i'm obviously super broken!! but the thing no one tells you is even if your life is
Well, that was unexpected... by Iduna-Haya, journal
Well, that was unexpected...
Today I logged in at dA for the first time in a while, and I was shocked to see how long it had been! It was never my intention to take such a drastic break, but I guess art-block and RL took a hold of me 🙈 As some of you know, I've been struggling with my art-style for a while now. On top of this, some mental health issues and the stress of living up to 'social media expectations' was really getting to me. I didn't decide to take a break, but I guess that at a certain point, enough is enough. So, what's the situation now? I didn't sit completely still! I did a lot of sketching and thumbnailing and art-related reading, and have tried to figure out what I like to see in art. What would I love to hang on my wall? That's what I want to create! And then I've compared that to what I've been creating until now, my current skill-level, my plans for the future, etc. And I came to the conclusion the score actually isn't too bad 😊 With some additional practice, time, and a lot of patience, I
November: Moments of Memory by LadyLincoln, journal
November: Moments of Memory
Welcome to November. Another painful and lonely season is quickly approaching. This month also brings with it my usual cause in honor of Momma Sue— Lung Cancer Awareness. It has been a long twelve years since she lost her battle, but I dare not forget it. I suppose others grow weary of hearing and reading about it, but these days, my words and memories are all I have, and I still have a legacy to try and protect in some way. Hard to believe it has been so long since I last held her, heard her reassuring voice, her soft laughter, sage advice, and watching her take her last breath. Time passes by so quickly; though it is bittersweet. Each November, I take time to reflect and remember her horrendous fight— how swift it was and how painful. Her raw emotional and physical pain is something I might never forget, no matter how hard I may try. She taught me that life changes faster than we can blink and that family is everything. Her battle with lung cancer was as swift as it was